Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ♥
I HATE people CALL MY FULL NAME and also WRITE MY
NAME
on the conversation or personal message. I feel weird when i see
my name. So remember DON'T WRITE MY NAME in any
conversation. NEVER EVER IN YOUR LIFE. GET IT?
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BLOG...
Just finish reading one of my Canada friend blog. She is my best friend in Canada. She came from Taiwan and she is a very smart girl(at lease smarter than me). Few years ago we got EST class and we talk about Taiwan singer. And i say i know one Taiwan singer but he is Malaysian. And that singer is my second idol Nicholas Teo. That time they say his song is OK but they focus more on other singer like Jolin, David and some more i forgot. So they just didn't continue talk about my idol Nicholas. But just now when i read her blog, i saw a post that say Nicholas Teo song very nice. The song is 'Moment of Silence'. She say this song is very nice and also the MTV is very nice too. I am so happy that finally got someone( before don't like Nicholas one) say his song is nice and good. Say is a very good song.I don't mind people to say about how stupid i am and so on. But i mind people say bad thing about my idol and friends. Especially IDOL. And if you want to say my friends bad thing i don't really mind also but can you guys just don't want to bitch her or so on. How bad is that friend also don't scold her. Cause they don't know you and you suddenly scold them of course they will hate you and me also. Just complain in front of me is good enough. I know which friends is good and which is bad. I am not crazy. I know what I'm doing. Just don't keep saying the same thing again and again cause i hate it. I am a normal person. I know how to think cause my parents got give me brain and they give me manners than don't simply say bad work like 'CB, F*CK and so on. I really hate that.( sorry don't mean to write that). In my memory i remember i don't say bad word cause for me its rude but after i came back to Malaysia i always hear people say bad word. Just one simple thing also can say thousand of bad word. Just one small thing only why you have to say bad word. If big thing than you have to kill the thing is it?
FOREVER MISS YOU....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ♥
Stop blow me up to the sky bitch.
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Just now i was chatting with my Canada friend. She is my second best friend in Canada. She teach me how to treat friends and ltos more thing. I really like her( friend kind). Just now she actually ask how was my holiday( cause now in Canada is long holiday) and i told her my holiday is in November not July. In that conversation she told me that she came to Malaysia last year,and i keep asking her why don't tell me you came and where you went and where you stay. Was keep asking her this and that. She told me that she went to KL and she stay at the hill there. When she say she stay at the hill there i think is genting. But than she say don't what and i htink might be cameron. And after ward she told me she stay in the very colourful hotel. And so on. So at last she told me she stay at cameron. And at last she told me she going to come again next year. Erm... next year i might see her. For sure i take thousand picture with her and sure talk for few night no need to sleep. Cause i really really miss her and my other Canada friends. Well anyways good luck Marisa. Good luck in your exam. And remember to show me your picture at Malaysia. Canada is really really better than Malaysia many many times. To all my Canada friends. I'll forever miss you. And love you too. You guys give me a very good memory. Love ya forever. Muak
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I wake up at 4am today just because i promise my friends i will bring them pasta today. So i started to cook at 4:30am. I have to do everything softly cause don't want to disturb my parents and brother(cause they sleep at the living room cause of my parents room air condition broke down). So i cook the macaroni and cook the ham, hot dog and bacon. So i done everything at about 6:10am. I almost late for bus. But don't know why today i didn't cook the bacon till cannot eat( cause last time i cook bacon i actually make the bacon cant eat cause its all black). And and and just everything also very good.lol. Normally i sleep at 12am and wake up at 6am i also need to sleep in class but today i wake up at 4am and yesterday i slept at almost 2am. At school i didn't wanted to sleep. I was really shock. Until now i still feel very happy and don't feel tired. Why like this i really don't know. Let's talk about the pasta. I gave to few of my friends. Yen Teng, Kar Yan, KAh Yian, Darren Chow,Hermes and Rachel. They give me 8.5 from Yen Teng, 8 from rest of them except for Rachel and Rachel give me 9mark out of ten. First time i cook for friends and also i didn't cook pasta for a quite long time and they say is nice. Thank you for saying that but i really wonder is it really true that the pasta is really that nice. Cause i didn't get to eat so i not so sure. But never mind i can always cook whenever i want. Of course i wish the pasta is really nice but i just feel like they are just want me to be happy so tell me is nice. I feel like the sauce is too sweet and sour and not enough ham, bacon. Really don't know is that true a not. But anyways i was really happy that they all finish eating even thought i didn't get to eat( got to eat some from my friend). I wonder when will be the next time i'm cooking it again. But if i cook again i have to ready 9 boxes include me. Very exicted when i can cook again.ERm.....WAITING......
Monday, July 27, 2009 ♥
Didn't i told you that what you want you must tell me earlier. Like if you need credit you should tell me before 9pm. And like now you want me to get you that thing yous should give me more time. Cause i need time to ask my friend to give me money and to save money. And now you tell me so late and i have to get it before Friday( that mean on Thursday i have to have it). I don't know whether my friend let me take the money a not and the other one i don't know he can give back me a not. So i can just try. Sorry if i cant get it.
Sunday, July 26, 2009 ♥
Didn't talk for 16 days. In this 16 days i really miss him and i try to talk to him but scare he still ignore me. Wait, is actually i ignore him first or he ignore me first? I really don't know. I just remember on that day i actually want to tell him i forgot to bring my money, racket and water bottle on the bus but he ignore me. So after that i ask my friends( same class as him) whether they can lend me 30 buck a not. And i think they go and tell him that i need money. During recess he come and ask me thing but i ignore him. So, it's actually i ignore him first or he ignore me first?He reply my message today(i send him on Friday) and he wrote_______. Also don't why he send that for. I want to reply back him but i don't know what to send. But never mind la. Just maybe wait for few more days or weeks. Today got few people ask me how is me and him . I was kind of shock when they ask me especially Rachel. I thought she actually forgot cause i ask her for help to talk to him for a week already but she still didn't ask. But anyways thanks for asking. And thanks for the other five friends also. Thanks for actually remember what happen to me and him and care about me(i think). I wish today I'll have a dream that me and him talk again and just like before. It's going to be fun. But dream only can last for a while not like real life can last as long as you want. Don't know when can this dream come true. NowMood:
Sad, boringDoing:
listen crush(David Archuleta), look at those picture (which got him)Wish:
Can talk to him tomorrow and never be like this anymore
Saturday, July 25, 2009 ♥
別怪她 (Don't Blame Her)主唱: 吳卓羲 (Ron Ng)作曲: 鄧智偉 填詞: 陳詩慧 監製: 杜自持 不相信愛我能永久 只想到我也曾棄舊 曾經 就算痛苦仍捉緊你手 怎相信最後你竟 隨他愉快遠走 如放任 仍放任 我也知醜 * 別怪她 別怪她 別再傷心對吧 從遇見的一剎 是捉緊了嗎 別怪她 別怪她 別再敷衍對話 疲累了讓我休假 他怎計算也無對手 畢竟你我確曾邂逅 如果 沒有記憶也不必顫抖 怎相信最後你竟隨他愉快遠走 如放任 仍放任 難過更傷透 repeat* 別怪她 別怪她 別再傷心對吧 從遇見的一剎 是捉緊了嗎 別怪她 別怪她 別再敷衍對話 如學會別再想他 (獨白)原諒我付了代價
不(bat) 相(seung) 信(sun) 愛(oi) 我(ngoh) 能(nang) 永(wing) 久(gau) 只(jek/ji) 想(seung) 到(do) 我(ngoh) 也(ya) 曾(chang/jang) 棄(hei) 舊(gau) 曾(chang/jang) 經(ging) 就(jau) 算(suen) 痛(tung) 苦(foo) 仍(ying) 捉(juk) 緊(gan) 你(nei) 手(sau) 怎(jam) 相(seung) 信(sun) 最(jui) 後(hau) 你(nei) 竟(ging) 隨(chui) 他(ta) 愉(yue) 快(faai) 遠(yuen) 走(jau) 如(yue) 放(fong) 任(yam) 仍(ying) 放(fong) 任(yam) 我(ngoh) 也(ya) 知(ji) 醜(chau) * 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 再(joi) 傷(seung) 心(sam) 對(dui) 吧(ba) 從(chung) 遇(yue) 見(gin) 的(dik) 一(yat) 剎(saat) 是(si) 捉(juk) 緊(gan) 了(liu) 嗎(ma) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 再(joi) 敷(foo) 衍(hin) 對(dui) 話(wa) 疲(pei) 累(lui) 了(liu) 讓(yeung) 我(ngoh) 休(yau) 假(ga) 他(ta) 怎(jam) 計(gai) 算(suen) 也(ya) 無(mo) 對(dui) 手(sau) 畢(bat) 竟(ging) 你(nei) 我(ngoh) 確(kok) 曾(chang/jang) 邂(haai) 逅(hau) 如(yue) 果(gwoh) 沒(moot) 有(yau) 記(gei) 憶(yik) 也(ya) 不(bat) 必(bit) 顫(chin) 抖(dau) 怎(jam) 相(seung) 信(sun) 最(jui) 後(hau) 你(nei) 竟(ging) 隨(chui) 他(ta) 愉(yue) 快(faai) 遠(yuen) 走(jau) 如(yue) 放(fong) 任(yam) 仍(ying) 放(fong) 任(yam) 難(naan) 過(gwoh) 更(gang) 傷(seung) 透(tau) repeat* 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 再(joi) 傷(seung) 心(sam) 對(dui) 吧(ba) 從(chung) 遇(yue) 見(gin) 的(dik) 一(yat) 剎(saat) 是(si) 捉(juk) 緊(gan) 了(liu) 嗎(ma) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 怪(gwaai) 她(ta) 別(bit) 再(joi) 敷(foo) 衍(hin) 對(dui) 話(wa) 如(yue) 學(hok) 會(wooi) 別(bit) 再(joi) 想(seung) 他(ta) sad song. suitable to me.
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TVB A Journey Called Life Full Theme - Steven Ma. Linda Chung.小故事 (金石良緣 主題曲)
作曲∶鄧智偉
填詞∶馬浚偉
主唱∶馬浚偉、鍾嘉欣
Linda:
cheen lo moot dang jee yau yeen,
前---- 路-沒-- 燈 ---只 有-- 煙
hok wooi jooy jung jaau si seen.
學 ---會 --醉-- 中 --找 -視-線
wooy mong sing dai foo geep ya hoh jeung yan sung dik ho gey nim.
回 ----望--- 剩 -低 -苦 -澀-- 也 可 ---將-- 人 --生--的 -好-紀 --念
choon joy gwoh joong yuw yee yee,
存 ----在-- 過--- 總--- 有-- 意-義
yurk geet gwoh jun fun beet leew,
若--- 結--- 果 --真 --分- 別 --了
wan see yuw....ming teen.
還-- 是-- 有 ----明 ---天
Steven:
dong shurng do jun see but doong tai lui
當 -----傷---到-盡--時不----懂---淌-淚
foo cup ya luen yuw huw lan yeen meen dooy
呼--吸-也- 亂 --有---口- 難 --言---面--- 對
Linda:
dong shurng ahn jeem hung hook but shoon jooy
當-----雙---- 眼---漸 --紅---哭---不 --算---罪
lam wat looy...shooy moot yuw fooh shui
男---或---女---- 誰--- 沒---有--苦 --水
Together:
choong see geet gwoh joh yee jee
縱------使--結---果--早--已-知
juw shoon hay sung doh yuen yee
就---算---犧--牲---都---願--意
cheen lo yuw doh fooh mei pah sut doh
前----路-有--多--苦---未--怕--摔--倒
choon yun lei gun kuw joo
全-----因-你-緊---靠--住
mong deew jok teen nah wihy yee
忘-----掉--昨---天--那--懷---疑
joy kwun ging geen suhw lo seen
在--困---境---堅---守---路--線
mo hum leew jeh booy jee mei shoon churng mei gok doon
無--憾---了--這--輩---子---未---算----長-----未--覺--短
ha... shurng yung dooy see
啊----相----擁----對---視
nei ho bo gei joo
你-可--否-記-住
ngow sung yoo sihy shurng
我----生---於---世---上
dung jeh seew goo see
等----這--小--故---事
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愛人與海
作曲:黃文華/何夠源
填詞:林若寧
編曲:橋韜@U’s Music
監製:周初晨@U’s Music/Ronnie Ng
在木筏抱擁 橫渡過紅海為了找你
可惜你卻生氣 浪花忽爾捲起
熟睡在愛海 誰料愛情能被你狠狠浸死
只怪喜歡你不起
撐呀撐 恐怕一直在原地
突然消失了落腳地
得你一聲對不起
活在大海 只可以漂泊
並沒什麼 比起你兇惡
你是個浪我怎寄託
如大海失去海港
活在大海 想找救生索
船兒停泊 不了你的海角
愛你也陪n將情懷揮霍
潮汐都乾涸
自問是我蠢 停在碼頭等待你歡送
可惜你太廣闊 並不可以相擁
巨浪又暗湧 無限隻船停在你寬廣領海
比我好的太多種
撐呀撐 恐怕一直在原地
突然消失了落腳地
得你一聲對不起
活在大海 只可以漂泊
並沒什麼 比起你兇惡
你是個浪我怎寄託
如大海失去海港
活在大海 想找救生索
船兒停泊 不了你的海角
愛你也陪n將情懷揮霍
潮汐都乾涸
那個會用愛心打撈我
八十個浪拼命沖走我
漏氣的水泡卻同情我
活在大海 只可以漂泊
並沒什麼 比起你兇惡
你是個浪我怎寄託
如大海失去海港
活在大海 想找救生索
船兒停泊 不了你的海角
折斷救生艇的情懷摩托
沉沒於天國
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明天以后
泳:在你的記憶裡面有一個我在你最痛苦的時候陪你度過難過過了天晴朗了我就走峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢在你的面前我不必保留還來不及對你說遲到的我的心動泳:你的好你的壞峯:我的脾氣你最懂泳:我不要你來心疼我峯:我不要你離開我合:明天的以後我們會懂失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情峯:因為有你給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣其實也想好好愛你泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心峯:我不怕會傷心合:對不起我對你再好再親密都不能在一起峯:最後看你在別人懷裡泳:有天我會找到我的唯一峯:我並不是你的唯一合:還微笑祝福你峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢在你的面前我不必保留泳:我從來沒對你說壓抑的我的心動峯:我的好我的壞我的脾氣你最懂泳:我不要你來心疼我合:明天的以後我們會懂失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情峯:因為有你給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣其實也想好好愛你泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心峯:我不怕會傷心合:對不起我對你再好再親密都不能在一起峯:最後看你在別人懷裡泳:有天我會找到我的唯一峯:我並不是你的唯一合:還微笑祝福你泳:愛情總讓人折磨峯:所以我們才選擇合:做比情人更好的朋友泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情峯:因為有你給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣其實也想好好愛你泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心峯:我不怕會傷心合:對不起我對你再好再親密都不能在一起峯:最後看你在別人懷裡泳:有天我會找到我的唯一峯:我並不是你的唯一合:還微笑祝福你pinyin lyrics:V=Vincy, F=Fung, T=TogetherV: zai ni de ji yi li mian you yi ge wozai ni zui tong ku de shi hou pei ni du guonan guo guo le tian qing lang le wo jiu zouF: ni zheng jiu wo de ji mo wo de tong wo de mengzai ni de mian qian wo bu bi bao liuhai lai bu ji dui ni shuo chi dao de wo de xin dongV: ni de hao ni de huaiF: wo de pi qi ni zui dongV: wo bu yao ni lai xin teng wo (F: wo bu yao ni li kai wo)T: ming tian de yi hou wo men hui dongT:shi lian de cuo zhe rang ren bian geng cheng shou*V: wo dui ni gan jue sheng guo ai qingF: yin wei you ni gei wo yong qi gen wo yong bu wan de yun qiF: qi shi ye xiang hao hao ai niV: zhi pa dao zui houV: bu xiao xin rang ni shang xin (F: wo bu pa hui shang xin)T: dui bu qi wo dui niT: zai hao zai qin mi dou bu neng zai yi qiF: zui hou kan ni zai bie ren huai liV: you tian wo hui zhao dao wo de wei yi (F: wo bing bu shi ni de wei yi)T: hai wei xiao zhu fu niF: ni zheng jiu wo de ji mo wo de tong wo de mengF: zai ni de mian qian wo bu bi bao liuV: wo cong lai mei dui ni shuoV: ya yi de wo de xin dongF: wo de hao wo de huai wo de pi qi ni zui dongV: wo bu yao ni lai xin teng woT: ming tian de yi hou wo men hui dongT: shi lian de cuo zhe rang ren bian geng cheng shouRepeat *V: ai qing zong rang ren zhe moF: suo yi wo men cai xuan zeT: zuo bi qing ren geng hao de peng youRepeat *english lyrics:V: In your memory there is only me,Im always there during the hard times,And I will only leave when its clearR: You saved me from being lonely, my pain, and my dreamBut in front of you I cant promise anythingI cant wait to tell youYou have touched my heartV: Your strengths, your weaknessesF: You understand my attitude the bestV: I dont want you to love me dearlyF: I dont want you to leave meT: After tomorrow we will understandLovelorn is a setback which will help people matureV: I feel as though feeling overrides loveF: Because of you, youve given me strength, given me unlimited luckIve actually thought to love you wellV: Im just worried in the end that were not careful and Ill be hurt (F: Im not afraid to be hurt)T: Sorry, I think that we shouldnt be togetherF: In the end I see you with someone elseV: There will be a day where I find the only one (F: Im not your only one)T: We will smile as we congratulate one another*Chorus
After tomorrow what will happen? Me and him?
♥
“Finding You In Loving Memory” by Raymond Lam
The Drive Of Life Sub Theme
我對你 這一生 哪個可比
我與你 差一些 永遠一起
邂逅時間場地 似連場好戲
要自何頁說起
愛太重 深呼吸 欠缺空氣
愛太美 輕輕的 卻載不起
愛情來到時候 似明媚天氣
它走了 突然驟變雪落雨飛
*如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想(要)放下你 還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離*
你太遠 該怎麼 說對不起
你太近 一轉身 卻已高飛
快樂也許太短 似場流星雨
一眨眼 就如幻愛怕又記起
如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 連遇上亦要躲避 無非想(要)放下你 還是掛念你 誰又會及我傷悲 前事最怕有人提起 就算怎麼伸盡手臂 我們亦有一些距離我情愿我狠心憎你
我還在記憶中找你
Finding You In Loving Memory” by Raymond Lam
The Drive Of Life Sub Theme
Ngoh dui nei je yat sang na goh hoh bei
Ngoh yue nei cha yat se wing yuen yat hei
Haai hau si gaan cheung dei
Chi lin cheung ho hei
Yiu ji hoh yip suet hei, whoa
Oi taai chung sam foo kap him kuet hung hei
Oi taai mei hing hing dik keuk joi bat hei
Oi ching loi do si hau
Chi ming mei tin hei
Ta jau liu dat yin jaau bin suet lok yue fei
* Yue gwoh hoh yi han nei
Chuen lik tung han nei
Lin yue seung yik yiu doh bei
Mo fei seung fong ha nei
Waan si gwa nim nei
Sui yau wooi kap ngoh seung bei
Chin si jui pa yau yan tai hei
Jau suen jam moh san jun sau bei
Ngoh moon yik yau yat se kui lei *
Nei taai yuen goi jam moh suet dui bat hei
Nei taai gan yat juen san keuk yi go fei
Faai lok ya hui taai duen
Chi cheung lau sing yue
Yat jaap ngaan jau yue waan oi pa yau gei hei
Yue gwoh hoh yi han nei
Chuen lik tung han nei
Lin yue seung yik yiu doh bei
Mo fei seung fong ha nei
Waan si gwa nim nei
Sui yau wooi kap ngoh seung bei
Chin si jui pa yau yan tai hei
Jau suen jam moh san jun sau bei
Ngoh moon yik yau yat se kui lei
Yue gwoh hoh yi han nei
Chuen lik tung han nei
Lin yue seung yik yiu doh bei
Mo fei yiu fong ha nei
Waan si gwa nim nei
Sui yau wooi kap ngoh seung bei
Chin si jui pa yau yan tai hei
Jau suen jam moh san jun sau bei
Ngoh moon yik yau yat se kui lei
Ngoh ching yuen ngoh han sam jang nei
Ngoh waan joi gei yik jung jaau nei
Now i am just like finding you in my memory. Wish can be like before.
♥
愛不疚
主唱 : 林峰
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常徘徊左右
ngoi chaai do moot yau
愛猜到沒有
yue faai woon siu hau
愉快玩笑後
nung chuen yin tui hau
能全然退後
nei hoi sum jau guw
你開心就夠
je jung gum gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚
gong yut cheen gooy ya but guw
講一千句也不夠
ga si gong liu nei ting do hau
假使講了你聽到後
waat wooi jau
或會走
je jung loon ngoi taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有
sing chuen
成全
chung sum jook fook yin hau
衷心祝福然後
jau fong sau
就放手
fong sau
放手
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由
fong sau
放手
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
fong sau
放手
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友
yee ging
已經
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠
yiu yuen si yue jau
遙遠是宇宙
jing jing joi booi hau
靜靜在背後
hui hon sau jau gau
去看守就夠
je jung gam gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚
gong yat cheen gui ya but gau
講一千句也不夠
jik si yut saat yau gwoh chung dung
即使一剎有過衝動
waan nei sau
挽你手
je jung loon ngio taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有
sing chuen
成全
doh se but dat ying yeen
多捨不得仍然
see fong sau
是放手
fong sau
放手
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由
fong sau
放手
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
fong sau
放手
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友
yee ging
已經
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠
fong sau
放手
ngoh dikhin gwa
我的牽掛
jaau but do jun tau
找不到盡頭
fong sau
放手
kei mong nei hung fook sam moh do yau
期望你幸福甚麼都有
ya hui
也許
ngoi hun sum hau
愛很深厚
yin yee ngoh jo hon dut tau
然而我早看得透
fong sau
放手
ji hoh yung yau
至可擁有
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Now
my mood: sad
Why my mood sad ? Cause of 'him' . Few of my friends ask me to talk to him first and i really try to talk to him . I message him yesterday when i just reach home than i message him But than he didn't reply me . This morning i call him but he didn't pick up. So i really feel sad. I already try to talk to him but he didn't pick up call or reply message. I really want to talk to him but but _______. I really don't what happen. I really don't know what happen. God can you teach me what to do? I really got lots of problem border me now. Can you just let me solve this problem. Can we just like before? Please please please. Haiz. also don't know what to say already.
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Rachel refresh my mind when i was grade one, once i don't what happen i have to go hospital and don't what again i have to get injection. That time i was running around the hospital( the don't know what room). But at last i still got caught by those evil nurse. And don't know how many big fat nurse go and press my legs and hands. I try to escape from them but they press to hard so at last i still got jab on the ass. So stupid why i have to get it. but i was so lucky cause that time i was just grade one and not form one. cause grade one show there ass is no big deal cause still young but form one show there ass will be very _____. But I was so lucky that i was still young when i got the injection and i only got it once.
So lucky.
HEHEHE
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For 4 years we didn't meet each other,and now you're in Malaysia. Today when i just arrive home, i heard my mom say one of my dad friend( we know each other at Canada) coming to visit us. And i was shock and exacted. Cause this uncle always give me good stuff so i like him. His name is uncle Ben. He teach me lots of thing about computer thing and lots more. Actually i forgot about him but than two days ago he talk to me at Yahoo. And he told me he coming Malaysia. I was exacted and happy and just got alots of feeling. And today i really see him. But when i see him he refresh my mind. He let me think how we meet at the first time and how we hang out. At that time we go out every two weeks with him. Every time also we also go shopping and play around or sometimes we go to the lake and have barbecue. And when i think of barbecue, its remind me at Canada during summer we always do activities like go to my uncle house or go to some lake and have barbecue. I just wish the time won't past like this fast. Wish now is four years ago. Cause my happiest time ever in my life is the few years that i am in Canada. I feel like Canada is weather is suitable for me. Cause love winter. I been once -40C and very windy snowing night i open the window to sleep. The next morning the whole house was cold like hellbut i have not much feeling. And after i came back from school my mom told me because of i open the window the whole night so the house is likefreezing. And the first time i ski and skate and all kind of snow activities. I really miss them. I really wish now is four years ago. Cause i really miss everything there. All my friends, school( cause i change 5 school in 4 years), all my teacher and so on.... Is a bad thing that i forget where i stuck my picture. If can i wish i can have another chance to be at Canada again and keep all my picture properly. And very important one is i wish i wont waste my time like before. Today is a very normal day. And i worry about something. I actually cant believe myself what i say. Cause my mom want to break up with my dad. And i want her t be happy and i say if she really want to break up, can she break up 2 years later. I just want her to be happy and i don't really want them to break up. I really don't what i did. I really hate myself,why i say that for? What the point? I really don't.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ♥

I have been waiting for a long time to know how much i use( phone bill). Finally today i know how much i use. And its not really alot like before but still alot. This time my phone bill cost RM153.86. Last time its cost about RM 200 something. I got scold by my dad cause i use this much( but they use two times more than me). But i actually i cant believe myself i can use this much. Cause i remember the first time i got phone i cant even finish using RM30. Only use RM 15 to RM 20 a month and now RM153.86. OMG, i cant believe my own four eyes. Really spend alot. Haiz... but who cares not i pay also. So whatever. Actually i hate message. Cause have to type and this and that. But than i cant believe my own eyes that i actually can send 1277 message. OMG! Is the second highest( the highest is 2000 message).
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Today is just normal as before. School still boring but after school is excited. Why? Cause its just funny and yeah something like that. Erm... You better remember what i told you this afternoon. If not i am going to shout at you again and its going to be more worst than this time( i mean more loud). Mood:Sad, boringListening: Low Profile Nicholas Teo ( suitable to my mood sad enough)Thinking:bout himWorry:bout him too
Monday, July 20, 2009 ♥
歌曲名称:沉默的瞬间
Song Title:Chen Mo De Shun Jian
歌手名称: 张栋梁
Singer Name: Nicholas Teo (Zhang Dong Liang)
专集名称: 沉默的瞬间
Album:The Moment Of Silence (Chen Mo De Shun Jian)
还搞不懂 心痛是什麽
似懂非懂成云朵
爱得汹涌 来不及闪躲
我却为她坠落
梦裡我泪滑落几回
心软弱了 逃避是非
潜意识 我心碎
梦醒了我张开双臂
只愿为爱勇敢一点 不后退
有谁会在乎 有谁会想念
有谁能看穿 我的笑脸
沉默的瞬间
寂寞却伴着我长眠
你走的坚决 枯竭了爱恋
我给的一切
梦裡我 我的泪滑落几回
心软弱 软弱了 逃避是非
潜意识 我心碎
梦醒了 我醒了 张开双臂
只愿为爱勇敢一点 不后退
有谁会在乎 有谁会想念
有谁能看穿 我的笑脸
沉默的瞬间
寂寞却伴着我长眠
你走的坚决 不后悔
有谁会在乎 有谁会想念
沉默的瞬间
寂寞却伴着我长眠
你走的坚决 枯竭了爱恋
我给的一切
爱得汹涌 来不及闪躲
我却为她坠落
This song more suitable to me. Actually both also. Cant i be happy? I really wanna know. Why my life so complicated? If i don't give them chocolate or buy them i-Touch will they still be frined with me? Will they stiall talk to me? I really don't know. My friends always so i am stupid and i know i am but i just fulfill my friends. But i actually really really wonder if i don't take advantage from me will they still talk to me? Be my friends? Anyone can give me answer? Please.
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[Lyrics] Nicholas Teo - Di Diao歌曲名称:低调Song Title:Di Diao歌手名称: 张栋梁Singer Name: Nicholas Teo (Zhang Dong Liang)专集名称: 沉默的瞬间Album:The Moment Of Silence (Chen Mo De Shun Jian)嬉笑 打闹 拥抱留下了那么多开心合照互相取暖依靠 熬过了最低潮一起生活 也一起埋怨过走过最好与最糟我在心里想的不用说明 你知道晨昏 日夜 颠倒这房子突然没从前热闹散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫感情很微妙 再多付出也好再多关心都徒劳爱情从来就没有固定的味道它最后停在哪里谁知道我的难过是如此低调因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角努力的对自己好 你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹就算你发现也好我想你一定会选择 假装不知道只怕我自己的掩饰不够好难到是我对我自己 不够好晨昏 日夜 颠倒
这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫
感情很微妙 再多付出也好
再多关心都徒劳
爱情从来就没有固定的味道
它最后停在哪里谁知道
我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好 你用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好
我想你一定会选择 假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好
我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好 你用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好
我想你一定会选择 假装不知道
难到是我对我自己 不够好 This song really suitable to my mood. I kind of fall in love to this song. Sad enough.
Saturday, July 18, 2009 ♥
Did i kill her parent? Why you must be like that to me? We're cousin. Why you have to make me get in trouble. Is not the first time you know. Why you must make me get scold by my dad and make me argue with my mom and get scold by my dad again. Fu*k her la. So stupid. i was scolding her just now ( i think is 5 something) till now i still cant stop scolding her. Everyone ask me to chill but how? Is hard ok. If you say is the first time i never mind but this is the third time. Make me get in BIG trouble. Fu*k you la. Go die la( OMG i cant imagine i say this much bad word. Thanks to you) Actually today should be a good day cause i hang out with my friends and I actually talk to Rachel.Talk to her in ohone and face to face. Don't why i really scare to talk to her and Azlina face to face( actually at phone also). But yesterday i actually call them and talk. I was really angry and sad yesterday thanks to her. But i am really thank you Azlina for listening to me and sorry i disturb you slepp. Very sorry. HAiz.... hate you. Why i have this lkind of cousin. Stupid. I promise what i do and you don't.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 ♥
Today such a busy day. I went out the whole day and i just arrive home. After piano class i went home for less than half an hour than i go out again. I went to mid-valley to buy stuff with my mom( cause she say got offer and i need to buy something too). We went there at 5 and we cameback home at 10.30pm. My leg are so damm pain. Piano kind of interest me again. Just because i can play that stupid song. But i think i will hate it for a while time more. Change the thing that i also don't what the hell is that. Just now some thing happen to me. Is like when i was running back from mph to jusco i suddenly feel that my heart and my left hand very pain. My left hand just cant move for a period of time. Until now my hand still pain. My mom say i got the stupid don no what again. Haiz... Went out so long but didn't get anything(not didn't get anything,i justgot my new idol album and that all.not like my brother got new cloth and many many more). I was a FREE worker there. Keep caring stuff here and there. It make my right hand muscle pain too. But not as pain as my left hand. Eww have to go out again. For dinner. I just ate a fish ball this morning till now i haven eat. Got gastric for don't know how many times until now i feel full. Really funny one. So boring ahhhhh........
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ♥
Erm.... I have been thinking about this for a long time( not really long time la.Maybe only got a week time). Which one should i buy( is either T707 or iPod-Touch). But she want iPod-Touch la. So now i have a decision i think i can buy two(no need to think too much which one is better).One for birthday present and one for Christmas present. The most expensive one is for birthday present. and the phone for Christmas la.haha. Christmas It remind me what i get from my friends three years ago. I never think before that my friends will give me Christmas present. But anyways thanks Leon, Teresa, Hussain J, Hussain S, Valerie and just who ever give me present and wishes. At lease better than here. For past two years no one remember when is my birthday. Even i tell
them lots of time.I just wish this year will be a bit different. I mean i think i will get more present than last year( last year i only got one which is 150 buck). This year i give out 6 present ( first time give so many people present cause normally i just say 'happy birthday' don really have present.) I sucks at writing blog la. Don't know how to write. haiz...
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Today is the worst day in my life. Why? Cause i didn't bring my stuff to school. Like i forgot to bring my water, my racket and my money. I still owe people RM20( is the present money). And just because of that i didn't stay back. Something weird happen to me today. When we finish our PJ, we go toilet and change. I suddenly cry. My tear come out from my eye. I really don't know what happen to me. Why i cry in front of my friends. Afterward they ask me what happen. But i didn't answer them cause first i don't really want to share and second i don't want anyone to know what happen to me ( i think is the same reason la).
I really hate myself. Too many problem for me. And i can't tell people whats the problem. I really feel like telling it to my best friend but i scared they will tell others people. I don't feel like letting this much people know. I just wish whatever happen today won't happen to me anymore. Haiz... kind of wonder got anyone understand me a not. But i think the answer is no. Will anyone know what i want the most for my birthday? I think no too. Even my best frined also don't know. I have to tell him than he know. Haiz... i really hate myself. I don't think i am a bad frined but why no one actually know what i want. What my frineds want i also try to get for them but me?NO ONE will.
Monday, July 13, 2009 ♥
I think i am the most stupid people in life.No is universal. Also too jobless go fool people. Make people always angry at me. I think the thing i did most wrong is born to here. Came back to Malaysia. I really hate Malaysia. Cause of the weather and some other things too. I prefer two years ago me cause i don't talk much and just better than now. Just like very shy and peaceful. I prefer people say i am shy or too quiet better than stupid. Well anyways i just know that i got headache badly. In a second too i remember the first time i got this blog. Who made thing blog for me and when she made it for me. On May 16Th 2009 is the day i got my blog. I think it is a small case la. It's a big case that i just use other people name and fool around with ALL my friends blog. Not just you two. All my other friends also got this RAY saying 'HI'. I thought i am a good friend but than from now on i think i am a worsted
friend ever in life. Feel like shouting now. Or screaming. If just this problem is OK. I don't think i will have headache but i got thousand of problem annoying me. Some problem last for 4 years. And some for sure cannot solve already. No one understand me.No one. Not even you or my family member. I am just too jobless and useless. I really not suppose to be here. I mean universe not Malaysia. No more wish no more dream. So the only thing i can do is go .........
Sunday, July 12, 2009 ♥
iPod-TouchT707W995Which one is better?I think
G900 is the best.lol. Just want to know which one is more better. I think if i am 'her' i will choice iPod-Touch too. Cuz iPod-Touch got everything i want. T707 and W995 look 'weird'. but what so ever my favourite phone is
G900 and
iPod-Touch 32GB. I just know i have to save money cuz of i going to buy a present for one of my friend. Maybe is chrismas present or birthday present. If it is birthday present than i can give it to her next year but if chrismas present, than i cant get my dream phone this year and cant buy present for my cousin unless i got enough money already. People always say i am stupid. Am i stupid? I think ya. But i just follow 'Canada style'. What friends want than i try to get for them. Unless i really cant. People always say i am stupid cuz of i help my friend. I understand how they feel and why they say that. I feel happy that i got you guys as my friends cuz you guys always care bout me. Not like the others. So what so ever. I just know i am so boring now. Got nothing to do. Haizz....
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What is home? For my information i think home is a place that everyone there you can trust. You can tell everything to them. But than i don't think i got a 'home' I just know i cant share anything to anyone. Like who i like, what i am into and so on. I only can share thing with friend but not with family member. Just want to have a 'home' like my friends. They can share and talk with they family members. All of them are so close and just very close. At lease they could talk. I mean they got subject to chat.I just know i really wish i can have a 'home' which i can tell them my secret.
Thursday, July 9, 2009 ♥
TOday such a bad day. I dono how i can fall down cuz of that stupid idiot fucker thing. I hate that stupid thing la. Make my leg cant walk and bleed non stop and always pain. So painfully man.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ♥
Langkawi actually SUCKS. I don't like that place. IT sucks and dirty too.But in only this three days two night trip, a lots of things happend. Sad thing and happy thing. I really don't how should i feel. Lets say the happy thing first. me and him was so crazy in last two days. We play everything we saw and fight around everything. Even just a drink, we can fight till my brother finish drank it. We play water and sand togather make until each other look funny. I really have a fun time with him. But on Sunday night we both are too free and boring while my mom and dad frineds was ordering food we go and play a game which is call everyone in our phone list and say ‘I love you’. I use his phone and called the first friend we both know and I say ‘I love you’ than is his turn. He go and call one of my friend. And something happened till she send me a message say don’t want to be friend with me anymore. I was so shock that time and I really don’t know what to do cause this thing sucks and I think me and him are too jobless. Really don’t what happened and she just say don’t want to be friend with me. Am I a bad friend? I think I am a very BAD FRIEND. But I always thought I am a okok friend( not good but not bad too.) After we finish eating our dinner we went back to hotel and I go and drink threee can of beer which make me got headache badly this morning. And I was so drunk yesterday. I do lots of ‘weird thing’. Haiz….. Really wonder am I a bad friend. I really wonder why you suddenly say that. Now I just wish I won’t lost both of you but one is good enough. At lease you still my friend. I don’t want to lost two friends at once. Only that friend also good enough make me want to drink beer( which I normally don’t drink one and I kind of hate it too.). The feeling of lost one of your frined is like your heart is kind of break in to few piece and and just don’t feel good. I really wish I won’t have this feeling again. cause this feeling sucks. Really really suck. I just hate it.So what should I say about this trip? Fun or Sad. I think it is fun and sad too. Fun at the first and the half day and sad and sad for the rest of the one and a half day. HAIZ…. Headache. I hate myself really much now. And I still feel like getting drunk. No need to think anything.
Friday, July 3, 2009 ♥
Today is report card day. I told my mom that today is report card day in the morning. Luckily my mom didn't go school and take my report card cuz its sucks a lots. I was playing around just now but i think i did something wrong. I don't mean to write that. I was too boring and jobless so i wrote those thing. Just because i play play i think i make one of my friend get angry. I am so sorry. i don't mean to. I was just playing around. Can you forgive me pls..... Haizzzz I am so jobless. It should be a happy day today cuz my mom didn't went to school and take my report card and later i can see that person. He come my house to sleep over night and tomorrow i am going Langkawi with 'HIM'. Now i not only not happy and also very headache cuz of what i do just now. I am really really sorry bout it. Sorry Rachel and Azlina. erm...actually why i write this for? Cuz they won't read it also ( I think cuz they angry at me). Really headache man.I am
very very very very very very SORRY.
SORRY RACHEL. SORRY AZLINA.
Thursday, July 2, 2009 ♥
Tomorrow is
report card's day. I still haven tell my parent about it. Cuz my result is very very bad. I only pass four subject. Rest off it also fail. I fail all bm subject. Like bm, perdagangan, moral, sejarah, and just all bm subject la. Haiz…. Don’t know what to do la. I promise my parents I won’t fail any subject for mid year but now I actually fail all subject ( cuz I fail bm) For bm I only need 9 more mark to pass. Really don’t know how. Later if my parents know already don’t let me go out than I will be bored to death ( cuz stay home everyday face my parents) I feel like shouting now cuz I only got few hours left to tell my parents. I don’t want to tell cuz I don’t want to stay at home everyday. Want to go out with friends la. I am so headache now. Should I tell or not? I really don’t know. Anyone can help me? I want to shout I want to release my anger and all the things which annoy me( got quite a lots of thing are annoying me). God help me please. I need someone to help me cuz I really really don’t know what to do. Got anyone can help me?Haiz…. SO headache. So headache ….help me …anyone can? Should I tell them?
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 ♥
He is at my house now.....SO fun.
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Saturday Saturday Saturday Saturday
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Can't Wait Till This Saturday..........
It's going to be an AWESOME weekend.
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Today is first of July. Thats mean is Canada's Day and Hong Kong's Day. Suddenly want to sing Canada Theme song. Its remind me the first time my brother sang 'Negaraku' he go change the Canada to malaysia. Really funny. Today is kind of 'fun'. The thing i love the most today is at 'that place' talk to 'that person for quite long time'. Just today is a happy day. Maybe is cuz of Canada's Day.Oh ya...Today Rachel was kind of ......... and Azlina too. They both are kind of too .......... today. haha. Can't wait till this Saturday,cuz it will be a awesome day. Saturday till Monday. Sure take alots of picture with him. hahax.......